Walking to my work from that parking lot would take 27 minutes and I only had 24 minutes. This was my first day. I had to trust that the shuttle would come or I needed to run.
I wanted to just do it myself and run, but it was nine degrees (Fahrenheit) out, and I would be late for sure.
I chose to trust, and three minutes later the shuttle came, and I got to work early. Helping students register for college classes filled my day, so I had a blast.
This experience brought up my insecurities with trusting people: Can I depend on people to come through? Should I just do it myself?
My family growing up was a “do it yourself” mentality where we made our own candles, bread, and even maple syrup from the sap from our maple trees. Those were good things, but this feeling I was feeling had hurt me in other situations by not opening up, just trusting people, and relaxing.
I used to think I just had to depend on myself, and if I wanted things to happen, I had to, for example, walk to work.
My beliefs have been changing from letting love in and relaxing more. This situation helped me practice trusting more, and I’m glad I did because, man, it was cold outside.
By M. H. Campbell Copyright 2015